*waving like Forrest Gump*
Man, this model life keeps you busy busy busy.. and I’m not even out of first gear yet.. So let me catch you up on what I’ve been doing lately. So, I’ve gotten alot of positive feedback from Fashion Week Alabama.. The pictures were awesome.. Love Love Love on the photographers Ya’ll … We would be nothing without them…
So.. last weekend, I went to a casting call in ATLANTA. ( I think I’m going to have to move soon..tehehe) The casting was for the Style EXperience with Creative Director PERRY VARNER. Ladies, the one thing I can say about this EXperience is that .. this is one COOL DUDE. If you ever get the chance to meet him you will understand… As many models, designers, celebrities and industry people that he comes in contact with.. he does not have that * I’m BETTER than YOU* attitude at all. This was QUITE refreshing because we all know how some people can get the big head and turn their noses up at you.. and for a youngster like me coming into this industry as a Full figured Model, that can be a bit intimidating. But he wasn’t like that AT ALL.. which is why I suspect that he has been so very successful in his career. Don’t get me wrong.. the man knows his stuff.. but people are more willing to work with you when treat people like People and not numbers. That goes a Long way for the REAL people of the world. My manager, Bo Talley, told me he was a very cool guy but he was about his BUSINESS.
So, I was the first model there.. because I was WAY WAY too early.. but I wasn’t MOVING.. I had driven almost 4 hours for this casting.. Are you crazy? *_* Chile BOO! LOL.. When the owner of the ORGANIX lounge pulled the curtains back to let us know he was open.. I was jumping out the truck.. I walked in where he greeted me with a very warm Southern greeting. Gotta LOVE ATLANTA for that.. He showed me where to sit to wait for the audition and walked away. Perry walked in shortly after… and asked if the music could be changed.. We needed something to really WALK to, you know. So the very handsome owner walked over to the music station and started going through the music.. He stopped on an R& B station… and what song is on… one of my favorites.. ( press play.. You know you want too)
When I heard this song… I knew I had it.. Why you ask? Because it speaks to my story.. and my personal struggle. I can see my ship coming in.. I have been waiting for this time all my life and Now, with the help of GOD., the baddest manager ever, Bo Talley, and my super duper support system( my friends and family) .. I’m Finally living the life I have hoped and dreamed for … all my life.. .. Ok.. back to the story before I become a Big ol punk and start crying again… ( so sensitive sometimes.. lol )
So.. Perry calls me and another beautiful model over, I think her name was Carla also from BAMA. He asked us to write down our information and then it was time to walk. He said.. “YOU FIRST..” Now I was nervous.. But when you LOVE what you do.. You will walk to whatever song, no matter who is around, no matter what you have ON.. it’s SHOWTIME.. We both walked .. and he says now let me show you what I want… and he did. He has been doing this a long time .. because watching him walk.. I wanted to say the stuff I usually say when I see a true WALKER.. which was .. OH.. You betta Do THAT!!! but I didn’t want to be ghetto.. so I refrained.
I watched .. and I was very familiar with the walk he did.. Some of you may remember the blog where my feelings were kinda hurt because I thought MY signature walk would get me where I needed to be and how I had to learn a NEW WALK.. Yea.. I had to do a LOT of growing up but I thank those that told me * NO MAAM *.. and then showed me HOW to do it.. I had to put my feelings aside.. to HEAR what they were saying.. not HOW they were saying it..
So I did my NEW NEW and I GOT IT!! So now, I am apart of THE Style EXperience.. and I couldn’t be happier with my career right now. And again.. If it all ends today.. I can say I LIVED.. I lived MY DREAM.. I didn’t QUIT.. I didn’t let it BEAT ME.. and I wanted it more than I was AFRAID of it.. Success has always been a struggle for me.. If you hear you aren’t good enough, not pretty enough, not smart enough for so long.. you will believe it..
Thank God I had a best friend who would let me repeat all that mess I had been told, and now believed myself, and then say.. in the most calm voice I’ve ever heard….. ” YOU FINISHED?… Good.. Now what are you going to do to CHANGE IT?”Love him for not listening to the whining and crying and replaced the naysaying and drama with encouragement and empowerment..
I am where I am today because someone didn’t let me QUIT. Everyone I’ve come in contact with in the past year, are where they are because they had that ONE person in their corner( even if it was themselves) that said.. OH YES YOU CAN.. try!!!!.. That’s why I do this page and my facebook.. I’m going to KEEP encouraging you to live your dreams and making them a reality. Full Figured Women have to face a lot of obstacles because people tend to JUDGE us before they see what we can do.. But I’m here to tell you.. If you give up.. THEY WIN…
I’ll end with one of my QUEENS favorite sayings… DO YOU BOO and GETCHO LIFE!!!!!!!